Creating my "love goals"

I'm so sick and tired of opening our fridge or pantry and finding nothing but junk in there! Tomorrow, it will all change. I will be emptying out our refrigerator, and pantry of all things unhealthy tomorrow, sticking to my new Special K diet, and making my morning routine of vitamins and workout stick harder. After all, it's all about the cardio.

As a statement, I'm going to make a multi-grain turkey sandwhich with reduced fat condiments and veggies for taste.

The fact is, I feel much better when I eat better. I feel better with vitamins. I feel better when I'm active. Taste buds win out most of the time, but I have to stop letting that happen. I'm a 20 year old who feels like a 40 year old, gaining stomach weight from bad dieting and stress.
It's ridiculous.

I should be enjoying life, not worrying about weight or stressing.

My next goal is to make a book of possibilities. Just a compilation of all things I want from my future, independently and with my future husband. I just want to look at the things, and know they are all possible. I just have to make them happen.

This is my new beginning, and I will make it happen as I want it. After all, I'm responsible for my changes. No one else.

It's hard to stay positive when starting your own business. Still, I know that if I weren't doing this, I probably would be going mad. Planning the wedding, starting the cake business, and the stationary business - I have to keep working at it because I know I'm good at it. I can't let fear of failure hold me back. How can I make this work?

I've been sticking pretty adamantly to my diet, and am pretty proud. As I type, I'm snacking on carrots, olives, and a bit of meat and hummus. I'm also proud of my productivity. I think I'm finally learning to live, and balance. Just today, I woke up, got a job, working on things for the wedding, did laundry, cooked dinner, and about to go to a holy hay ride - all while maintaining my vitamins, and healthy meals ( minus the one ice cream bar I had...100 calories. Teehee. ;) ).


I am lucky, happy, and blessed. The more I go, the more I'll be able to balance. :) I'm so proud of myself right now.

Enjoying a Chick-Fil-A chicken biscuit for breakfast. It feels pretty good to eat some carbs and grease, since the diet is about to bring about the food apocalypse full force. Gah, the peanut oil and the seasonings are exactly what I needed. Now that I'm all full, I need to work on applications so I can move on to the fun stuff - wedding planning! Jeez, I'm exhausted just thinking about it.

Still, it's worth it. I have a beautiful life with a wonderful man.